ADRIFT ON THE SEA OF TIME

          ADRIFT ON THE SEA OF TIME (1996-1997)         1-2-07

          We two
          Go on with our lives,
          Living today.
          Yet we hold on to our yesterday
          Like sea tossed people.
          We cling to each other's voices
          As driftwood,
          Watching our ship sink
          Beneath the Sea of Time.
          And the pain of it is constant.
          Oh my darling, so constant.

          Time and distance have not been friends to us.
          But we knew,
          When first we began
          Our impossible voyage,
          That for us
          The waters might be turbulent.
          Yet we left that safe harbor
          That had been our home,
          That had been our lives,
          And set sail to find
          The Land of All Possibilities
          Hitherto only known to each of us
          In dreams.
          We took our dreams, and from them,
          Created a reality that for most
          Will only remain a dream
          Their entires lives.
          For we were strong and brave,
          Spurred on by all consuming love
          That fuelled our hearts and minds
          So that when the winds of romance blew
          The sails fully unfurled
          And
          We crossed the knots of space
          To be one,
          To be lovers,
          To be spouses.
          We said "forever".
          We were glorious in our beliefs and feelings.
          How many others
          Whom we will know
          And whom we will never know
          Will ever take that dare?
          Will ever risk
          That incredible sailing
          Wherein we sailed?

          A new time is here.
          And still we vacilate
          And live our dreams and fantasies
          Of a year past,
          While living the reality
          Of the year present,
          Adrift on the Sea of Time.
          And the pain of it is constant.
          Oh my darling, so constant.

          I drown, Susan,
          In my pain,
          In my sorrow,
          In my regret.
          I weep not only for myself
          But for us both,
          For what might have been
          If only we had dared more strongly.
          If only ......
          And I weep for the pain that YOU have felt
          Because I lost direction,
          Because I lost heart,
          When our ship became rudder-less,
          Captain-less.

          And my tears fall into the Sea of Time
          And are swallowed up
          By the uncaring waves,
          And are lost.

          Perhaps you have found
          A far better captain,
          A far better mate,
          Who sees more clearly
          The direction
          That points to possibility
          For you.
          But then
          He never had
          To navigate
          The difficult tides of space
          As I did.

          My wish is for your happiness now
          In this new time.
          For who so deserves it
          More than the sweet
          Lilly of my Dreams?
          Whose garden I have tended
          And caused to bloom
          To radiance and sweet perfection.
          What gardener will not love you now?
          Who can resist your selfless love
          When you have so much to give,
          When you give so well?

          It is a new time now.
          Let us ask the Universe
          To make it blessed for us.
          Oh Sister mine!
          Your brother loves you still
          In this new time.
          Be happy and be loved
          Forever.